This scale is broken, right?

My weight is sort of like a historical stock market analysis. It was up a month ago. It was down the other day. I have always been the “big one” in my group of friends.

Fast forward to May of this year.

I started getting sick. Not the flu or MRSA or anything like that. I was sick of being the fat chick. I was ill from my clothes getting tighter and tighter. But what would be different this time? I have been sick of being fat before. But never sick enough to do anything about it. I’ve made a few  efforts but ended up just giving up.  In the past I have failed at losing weight for a number of reasons, but the one that I figured killed me the most was that I tried to hide it. 

This time I decided to do something different.  I needed some sort of motivation that would drive me to success. I needed to figure out how to keep my head in the game. So I signed up for the 2011 Tunnel to Towers run (next month, wee!). I signed up for some personal training.  And I’m talking about it.

I don’t like talking about weight, especially my weight.  I do not want people to look at me or give attention to my weight.  I want to ignore it and have it be ignored.   Sadly, this is a very poor way of dealing with being fat.  So I’ve got to put myself out there.

Getting fit and eating healthy IS NOT something that most of us are motivated to do.  So how do we force that motivation on ourselves?  I guess that not getting diabetes or not dying early isn’t enough of a 'here and now' kind of motivation.  So what is it going to be for you?

So far, I’ve lost five of the 70 lbs I want to lose.  That may not seem like a lot but it’s better than where I started. 

I am feeling pretty motivated right now. I know that there will be days ahead where I don’t feel like continuing, but since I’ve told you about all this, failure isn’t an option.  In the meantime please feel free to support me with encouragement and inspiration.